James

A long time ago i was close to Christ. An alcoholic father, smothering mother, and being molested as a child took a heavy toll on my life. All that anger and rage I turned on God for the parents I was given. And I started watching porn. I have tried to pray,, talked to pastors, and nothing helps. I have a lot of emotions pent up. I was listening to a prophet speak online and I shly asked if God forgives me. He said "The Lord told me to tell you to to read some of Matthew out loud to him and He'd give me a fresh revelation of Himself. I did as as soon as I did rage spewed form me and I saw the words or sensed "ant christ". I immediately backed down and started to repent of everything. But I can now get rid of the anger, hate, whatever locked up in my head. I have tried to pray many deliverance prayers on Youtube over and over but they havent helped. I'm now 61, have no work, my sisters are supporting me but that can't last. I have no self love or love at all really. I can't focus or think straight. I know this is serious. And I never married.And my health is failing. On Benny Hinn's telecasts spirits are cast out. Is there any hope for me?

Received: December 16, 2019