Jyoti

My name is Jyoti. I m in a situation where I can't sleep well as I close my eyes all things goes around n around tensed mentally stressed.

Love marriage I did I used to beleive Christ after marriage I left started idol worshipping as my husband is hindu. We know each other from last two n half years marriage is of one year. We haves fight on worst level because of his past affairs nd lieng habits. He physically n verbally abused me a lot. Last ten days back he physically hitted me badly banged my head on the wall. I took police help they came and told him not to touch me. Because of that he is completely made distance frm me sleeping in other room plus mkng his food own n eating. I m in other room. I loved him n still loves. But he never understood. He is negative Abt me now. Everyone saying leave him. N stay independent as staying before. I took decision to stay apart but feeling very disheartening from inside that he doesn't understand me my love he never seen his mistakes but wanted a wife who shud not question him n stay quiet. I can't sleep well. I need help. I left Jesus so is this the punishment I go. His name is Amit Sawant.

He also was in Christ before 8 years. He left nd he started worshipping idols.

I also abused him a lot when I got tired of listening a word whore from him n abusing words for my father who is no more in this world. I cursed him too. He is very stubborn person don't forgive anyone easily. Yesterday I asked for sorry msged him. But he did not replied.

Pray for my husband to get a heart of love which he can think possitive Abt me.

Very disappointed from myself that I did things which he will never forgive I know. I asked for forgiveness on msg but he avoided. I know after lockdown gets over he will apply for a divorce. I m praying n acceppted my faults n wrongs in front of Jesus. I m the sheep which was lost but he again found. I did sin from Mumbai to konkan I did all possible idol worship as he told me. Plz help. I need to say more.

Received: March 28, 2020